What is He waiting for?
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| Published: July 26, 2021
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״אהבת ישראל״ יהודה כ״ץ ורבע לשבעAhavat Yisrael
What is He waiting for?
A day after “Tisha B’av” and I feel I have found much to reflect on within myself. I invite you all to listen in to that conversation.
“Ani ma’amin be’emunah shlaimah b’viat ha’Mashiach….im kol zeh achakeh lo,” I believe with complete faith in the coming of Mashiach , even though he is taking much time to arrive, in spite of that fact, I will wait for him ( 12th of Rambam’s 13 Principles of Faith ).Why I am so concentrated on the fact that I, am waiting for him? If I am waiting for him all of these years it would seem to make sense that at the same time, he is waiting for me. If so, what is he waiting for? What is it that is getting in the way of his arrival?
This week’s Torah portion of “Va’etchanan” is packed with positive commandments about the Oneness of Hashem and the potential two way love relationship between us. “Shema Yisrael Hashem Elohenu Hashem Echad. V’ahavta et Hashem Elohecha b’chol levavcha, uv’chol nafshecha, uv’chol meodecha.” Hear all of Israel, Hashem is your God , Hashem is One. And you should love Hashem your God ,with all of your heart, with all of your soul and with all of your might (Devarim 6.4-5).“Ein od milvado, there is no other than Him ( Devarim 4.35).” …va’hashevota el l’vavecha ki Hashem hu ha’Elohim… ein od,” Realize today and ponder in your heart that Hashem is God in the heavens and on earth, there is no other ( Devarim 4.39).
It is important to note that last week’s portion of “Devarim,” was more concentrated on what I need to fix in order to get to that place of being able to love Hashem to the fullest extent. Perhaps this can help me understand, as I asked myself above, what He is waiting for. The B’nai Yisrael witnessed so many revealed miracles as we left Mitzraim and in the ensuing 40 years in the desert. The splitting of the sea for us to cross over, manna falling from heaven to eat, the giving of the gift of The Holy Torah that we received at Mount Sinai, water gushing from rocks for to drink and the clouds of glory to lead us on our way, to name just a few. In addition, we were saddened to see the death of tens of thousands of their brothers and sisters at the scene of the golden calf, the generations of the “meraglim,” spies, and of ״Korach,”as well as those who engaged in idol worship with “ba’al peor” and the Midianite women. After experiencing all of that we were now at the highest level of spiritual purity. They ascended all the way from the 49th level of impurity when they left “Mitzraim” to this high level as they awaited the final preparation for them to enter into The Holy Land of Israel. What could still stand in our way?
The Slonimer Rebbe explains that there were still two nations that were guarding The Land and acting as the blockade to deter our entrance to Eretz Yisrael. These were noted as the greatest “klipot,” spiritual stumbling blocks , in our path. They were “Sichon” the king of the Emorites of “Cheshbon” ( Devarim 2.30) and “Og” the king “Bashan” ( Devarim 3.1). B’nai Yisrael, with Moshe Rabenu leading the way, needed to break these “klipot” in order to arrive at their total status of “shleimut,” spiritual completeness. Only after that could Moshe teach us all of the laws of the Torah that we needed to know to be ,not only one with ourselves and One with the Oneness of Hashem, but also one with The Land, Eretz Yisrael and it’s inherent holiness.
Remembering that The Holy Torah is everlasting and alive today, I am reminded of the teaching of The Holy Ba’al Shem Tov which is brought down to us by so many teachers. Just as the B’nai Yisrael’s 42 stops in the desert parallels each of our 42 milestones on our journey of life, so too, in order to reach that place of completion, I too need to defeat those two intense spiritual “klipot” which stand in my way of arriving to the Holiness of myself, God and The Land. This is the purpose for which my soul was sent down into this world by Hashem,”ein od milvado.” I certainly have my work cut out for me. I need to get to know myself even better to understand how to finally break those stumbling blocks and be rid of them forever.
Of course then I realized that if is incumbent upon me to do this on a personal level, I am obviously not doing so simply for myself, but also on behalf of all of “kal Yisrael.” Ahhh! So there must still be two national stumbling blocks that our stopping us from connecting to the true holiness of the Land in order to elevate it’s status and our connection to the highest spiritual level we need to get to. This is what we need to do. Perhaps this is what He is waiting for us to do. We as a people need to identify the two biggest national blocks and simply break off from them and realize that “ein od milvado.” I feel certain that this can only help pave the way for the overcoming of the stumbling blocks that stand in the way of all of our brothers and sisters who are still living outside The Land, to hurdle over and join here together with us. Although over the years we have viewed certain nations as “friends” the reality in life is that I cannot wait for my friends to fix that which I need to do. They can’t do the work for me. I need to do the work , which must include reaffirming that we rely on no one other than Hashem to get us to that holy place. Each day in our prayers we ask for the strength to not rely on others to give us what we need ,but rather only on You Hashem.
This week’s Torah portion of “Va’etchanan,” opens with the words of Moshe Rabenu, “And I prayed with deep supplication to Hashem at that time saying the following”( Devarim 3.23).Reb Shlomo taught us in the name of the Holy Ishbitzer Rebbe that Moshe was telling B’nai Yisrael, ”I prayed 515 times ( the numerical value of the word “va’etchanan” as well as “tefilah,” prayer and “shirah,” song ) to Hashem for permission to enter into The Holy Land of Israel .Though I was refused , be assured that as a result of these prayers the gates are wide open for all of you to beg Hashem to finally bring the “Geulah,” final compete redemption. Perhaps last week prior to ״Tishah B’av״ I wasn’t ready to follow in those big footsteps. Perhaps I didn’t recognize that indeed He is also waiting for me. I needed at least one day to cry tears of hope in front of my Creator so that He could see that indeed this is what I really want and feel ready to do.
May we all be blessed to break all barriers that stand between us which can then bring us closer to Hashem and His will.